I’m sitting here looking at your pictures that I have posted over the years on my facebook page. My beautiful little girl! I waited so long to have you, only to loose you in a blink of an eye! it wasn’t quick, it was long and horrific the treatments and complications you endured! I am and always will be your mother. I brought you into the world and I lay with you as you passed back to God. Paytan, my heart aches for you. every piece of me wants to go look for you and bring you home to me. Your sister Haiely, she misses you so very much. I honestly, dislike the saying, “God gives you what you can handle” …. I never wanted you to ever had to have handled a disease like cancer, or anything bad for that matter!