As a parent….

As a parent we do everything humanly possible to protect our children….. the helplessness I felt when my child coded the first, second and third time…. I have no words how I felt….. nor could I stop what it did to my daughter…..

this is a note I found after her first coding…. a few months after she had passed away …💔

March 11…. marks 6 years

Today marks 6 years for my late husband’s second amputation….. This photo was taken a few hours after the actual amputation.

He was awake during both amputations and had only a nerve block…. no anesthesia!

Ten days later, March 21, 2011 he passed away from a massive diabetic heart attack.


Once Upon A Time

I long for the “full”silly days we used to have…. all the giggles, smiles and funniness. Once upon a time I had both my girls. My oldest is with her daddy in heaven…. my youngest I cherish whole heartedly….. if I could wrap her in bubble wrap…. lol…

Paytan, you’ve been gone a little bit over a year now and still it seems like yesterday.  Hailey and I miss you more than words we have to say…..

It breaks my heart every time I have to say the words I used to tell both you girls after Daddy died…. the words…” it’s not our time to go to heaven. When it is we will see each other again”….. those words I said to both you and your sister….. I now say to just your sister….. “it’s not our time”….