My Love…

Today in 2014… marks the day we heard the words cancer, leukaemia….
It still takes my breath away and knots my stomach… your words echo in my mind and heart…”mommy, am I gunna die?”
Paytan, my Love, I did EVERYTHING!!!! But I still couldn’t save you. I miss you!!

My heart aches deeply for you!!! My tears are overflowing with the pain of loosing you!!
There isn’t a day that goes by I don’t wonder, what if, where would she be now, would she be walking, what other complications would there be, how can I make things better for her…. and then … I remember… the details of the last few days. The immense amount of pain you had, the fishers in your bum, in your mouth, esphogus… you slipped away from me like water in my hands… I couldn’t hold on to you!!

My Love, I am so so sorry I couldn’t take your pain away!!! I couldn’t make you better!!!
My Love…. I love you and miss you❤️❤️❤️❤️